Identity in Christ / insecurity

One thing else I did not do the other day was have confidence in my identity in Christ. I have blogged about that. "Physician heal yourself." Not that I must act better than others. But I can be confident in Jesus, my identity as a saint of God.
In that identity I can be ready to be a servant whenever opportunity comes that I have the ability to help. My identity under Christ is as a servant. As a servant I can be confident in Christ.
I was thankful last night at Life Group for the party given in my honor for my birthday. I got a nice card, a cat on the front, a cake and wonderful brownies. I have decided red velvet cake is my favorite. Who knew it was chocolate? Yum. Both yum.
I find Philippians appropriate here. Yes I am reading into it what was not really there originally. This word was meant for the whole church, a group, not an individual like me. Yet I will read it for me right now.
"Conduct yourselves worthy of the gospel... standing firm in one spirit, with one mind, strong together for the faith of the gospel. In no way alarmed by your opponents, which is a sign of destruction for them, but of salvation for you, and that from God."
Some of the ideas encourage me. The passage was written for the group to act together. But I sometimes see my brothers in Christ like enemies. I know this is a personal problem. It's just a feeling. But in this situation I feel it is true. Perhaps what I am dealing with are old hurts and snubs. I guess I have unresolved issues but they are not conscious. I feel like running or saying rude things.
But thank God I was polite, even friendly to everyone. For the most part I may have passed the test. I feel like God is requiring my to grow up, be the man. But I did leave early, before most everyone else. Perhaps I should have stayed but I really saw no reason to do so. I would have stayed if I saw a reason to stay.
I see Philippians 2:4 "Do not merely look after your own personal interests but also for the interests of others."
I wanted to do that in this previous situation. I really did. But I did not feel I had anything to offer here. So I went home.